Jealous. So, I confess! I’ve been stalking some hottests’ tumblogs the past few weeks. At first I just wanted to look up some wooyoung pictures (just finished watching dream high and i loved it!) but found myself coming back to those fanblogs everyday! i gotta say, some hottests are crazy fans! they’re not the type who are scary-crazy though, more like the kind of crazy you are with a best friend. so here goes confession #1: i’ve never really found any friends within my fandom as much as i’ve tried. on the other hand, here i was just dropping a few anon messages on these hottest blogs and already feel like i’ve been friends with them for a long time! i wished my fandom had these fun, outgoing people to talk to.
the more i stalked these blogs, the more i learned about 2pm. gotta admit, i didn’t know much about them before nor did i really care but seeing how much 2pm cares for their fans make me really really jealous! i mean, its like there’s this very special bond that only 2pm and hottests have. i think that hottests are so lucky that the boys show their love so often, in so many ways. most of the posts recently are all about their on-going asia tour and they have this fansong, Thank You that they sing at the end of each concert. Every time I watch those fancams, I really want to burst into tears. you can really feel the connection and the love when they sing it. (though i feel like i have no right to actually burst into tears with them coz i’m not a hottest) so confession #2: i’m jealous! i want my fandom to have this special connection with our oppas as well! sometime i feel like they dont even care. >_<
last one! back to the asia tour - 2pm has this really really sexy (and i mean really sexy) performance complete with female dance partners. the first time i watched that performance, my jaw literally dropped! i cant even bring myself to imagine my bias doing anything close to that! how do hottests handle it?! i see some light hearted comments of heartbreak and a string of whyyyy oppa whyyyy?! but i take that they are all just joking about it. there are even some who support or ship them with the dancers! =O i mean, really?! comments like ‘get it oppa, get it!’ make me scratch my head. it shows that these girls are really open about the members’ love/dating/sex (gasp!) lives. i wished my fandom can be as light hearted as they are and truly wish them the best. i need not mention how violently our fandom reacted when a huge scandal broke loose a while back.
in summary, huge props to hottests! much respect! i love how you guys keep to yourselves, not really meddling with other fandoms or fanwars - god knows you guys have already been through so much! i love that you can take any picture, gif, video, fanaccount, etc. in stride and not make a big deal of it, just joking about it. i swear! reading your posts has been a blast! you are a hilarious bunch! i really like you guys~ hope there’s still some more space in your fandom coz i’m seriously considering jumping ship!
… hmmm now reading it back just feels like i’ve made a proposal of sorts. lol. but anyway, i want everyone to know about this so SUBMIT!