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Doing Compassion Band events seems to strengthen my beliefs
People said that they can hear God's voice and then follow Him but I really don't "How do they listen? What do they listen?" Once there's a saying, someone said "You shouldn't have any thoughts while praying, and God's voice can be heard" Four, five years ago, I had depression and very upset. Me, really looks like the enemy where five of them comes out. Not long ago during broadcast I have said, I didn't take any pay for the photo shoot of the poster. The month before being artist if if eleventh tax (Christian need to pay 1/10 of their pay to the church) of thirty thousand won is consider too much, then eleventh tax ten thousand also consider as a lot.
Paying different amount has been frustrating, but, during praying the word "forgiveness" appeared in my mind. For those who are laughing on people unhappiness what is forgiveness means?
My understanding is this vocabulary will not appear no matter what. "I don't know this kind of things, about laughing on people's unhappiness!"
"What can laugh on other people's unhappiness does?" God who done the judgement, really very curious in my heart. These people will not regret about the ending, by thinking this, I pray for the sake of them. However the amazing thing is, I had become pitiful, my heart become calm, even though not entirely honest but at least there isn't any hatred.
While living on belief, when do you feel his meaningful and fun?
Have been praying about many things without setting any condition in the past, still now, I still praying in hoping to get more abundant of help. Other than the hundred thousand that I get every month, even if I have to borrow money for living expenses, I will still give the eleventh tax. God surely will give many blessing at that time I do not believe. One day, when there is no money and yet still continue to donate, that is so unreasonable, just for a few years time and will enter with a bagful of money! How much shocking and thankful it has caused.
Now that all the debts have been paid, I can do voluntary service freely, mother that is ill, grandmothers hospital bills, I did my best to shoulder them, even though my savings will be lesser, but compare to that there have been more thankful, when young, my parents have been sacrifice for me, this is what I have felt. Because mother has done cancer surgery twice, others Im not that sure and I didnt want due to the glance of people with the same belief and does not do it.
However friends that can be relied on are valuable ideas that should have been done, also for Jung Ryeo Won which we do Chakra events together. At that time, makeup artist that is same age as me have also sent phone message to me frequently, saying that there is a need of me.
Recently at the newly set up church ( Faith church) have frequently meet up with Song Eunee, Park Mi Sun, Kim Suk Hoon Oppa and Lee Sun Mi Sunbae, while looking at them I felt I have also become this kind of sunbae, when people look at me, I have become this type of person. Even though theres have been a church that I have always visit with my mother since young but the youth group havent be verified before, and I have already discuss with others we can go to the church together, learning bible at church on Thursday isnt a bad idea.
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