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120810 - my Day. [Warning!] Contains a lot of emotional shit.
So yeah, how should I start
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Actually I will tell you my whole day today.
Lets start with this:
I didnt sleep, because I came back very late from TS and wanted to go to Music Bank before 6 AM. So at 5 AM I walked to the bank and wanted to get money, because I didnt had money with me. I tried all my cards but I didnt got money at all, yeah
I went back to my Hostel and checked my bank account, okay no money there. I wanted to call my mum then, but haha it was like 2 AM in Germany and no chance
Time went by and it was almost 5:30 AM, I started to panic
At my Hostel there was no staff because it was so early so I needed to wait
I was totally frustrated, because no one came
At 8 AM finally there was someone and it was actually pretty embarrassing to ask the staff to lend me money, but gladly they did. So I took a cap and arrived at KBS around 9:30 AM. I ran to search B.A.P queue and let my name wrote down. I was actually pretty sure that B.A.P would come late today, but guess what
no. I went to the place where you wait when the stars arrive and met 2 friends. I asked them if B.A.P already came and they said yes at 8 AM. Next thing I got more depressed from.Gladly they took pictures so I could see what Jongupie was wearing
or well
I wish I wouldnt have seen this. He didnt wear my cap, remember I asked him the day before if he could wear it please? Well yeah he didnt. He wore the same as the day before. I felt really sad at that point , because the day got worse and worse for me. I tried calming myself down by saying: Ah maybe he wasnt allowed to wear it and stuff like that, but when my friends told me that the cap that Daehyun wore was a present from a friend of them
Yup you probably know what was going on inside me then. But even with this I was sure he had a reason why he didnt wear it
like a real reason and not like because he dont likes it or something. Jongupie is definetly not the type that is like that. He uses a lot of fans presents and reads all letters. Somehow I survived by cheering myself up. One happy thing today was that it was Jongups Member day so we got his photocard! But
that girl sat behind me got signed card
lucky girl t.t Pre Recording normally should have be at 2 PM but it was delayed until 4 PM almost
and it was very sad today. Like they only performed 2 times
10minutes or something. Normally Pre Recordings are like 30 Minutes
So yeah after this I went home, rest a bit and got ready to go to TS, even though I decided to dont go there today, because I was still kind of sad. I wanted to write a letter to Jongup and tell him that I was sad, but in the end I didnt, because
I dont want him to feel bad. I only want to see him happy. I decided to go shopping before going to TS, so I went to Hyewha and looked out for stuff for Jongupie. I cheert myself quite well up and told myself ;3 I didnt buy anything expensive today, or clothes. I just bought an ugly octopus, because yea Jongupies taste is a bit strange and I think he will like it.
Its this one ->
Its pretty tiny and its like for mobile phone or a bag or what else to put on.
And I wrote him a letter~ I wrote that I wont give up and give him so long presents until he will use or wear one! >.< Fighting!
So at TS there were quite much fans, 3 Jongup Fans.
They came out and walked from TS to Dance Studio, I didnt saw Jongup first so I just ran in front and found him then
tiny boy. One Jongup Fan already walked beside him and the manager also
argh why <.<
I just called him and gave him my present, but insetad of walking with him I just went back to my friend who walked with Daehyun and yea
did nothing <.<
When they went in we both sat down on a bench and waited~ Gladly they came out just a few minutes later and it seemed like Daehyun changed his clothes. The van drove back to TS then and Jongupie and Zelo went in, the others not. Daehyun and Himchan went home and Youngjae and Yongguk to the radio. A few fans left so we werent much fans anymore. My friend and me waited at TS until like 0:20 and the other fans left already so we were only 2. But she left also then because she left also then and I wanted to wait because Jongup was still inside.
So I sat there alone like for 1 hour. Then Jongup and Zelo finally came down the stairs, I was happy. Jongup saw me but when they came out they went to that cordi nuna in the car and blablabla her like 5 minutes and I just stood there like: ehm
hi Im here t.t
u can talk to that girl everyday guys
but i will leave sooon
thats actually what I thought
I felt pretty uuseless and somehow I just wanted to leave then.. I mean Jongup saw I waited there
he knows Im his fan.. I was alone
I waited just for HIM so long and he
yea ok .___.
When they FINALLY finished I went to Jongupie and showed him my attendance card and told him I went to every single performance they had. He just say good and thumbed up to me and smiled ofc. Yea that was my conversation then lol. When they left Jongupie waved to me out of the car ahhh so cute >.< That cheered me up a bit.. but just a bit. I wanted to leave so I went down the street and saw the van at the mart and Jongupie just came out of the van, I waved to him and said byebye, he smiled and waved to but he wanted to grab my hand, but I didnt realize and just walked by
omg
after like 2 seconds i realized and decided to wait in front of the mart then. Zelo was in the car and he could have watched me all the time, that was pretty scary XDD I sat there like 3minutes
srsly what was he doing in that mart?!
Okay he came out then and I went to him, I told him in a very sad voice actually
that I will leave next week and go back to Germany
he made just his usual ah I also told him then I will miss him very much and that I dont want o go
And he just didnt say anything
like nothing at all no reaction, just looking at me. Seriously that was like the worst moment ever. That are moments Im jealous of Himes or brainboxes, because their bias talks at least, like really talking blablabla and Jongup just being so shy .____. When he went in the car he opened the window and waved to me again, okay that was totaly cute again
. sigh.
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