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Would you believe me if I say your father does love you very much? He simply does not know how to express his love the way you like to hear. His way is the only way he knows.
Please believe that he loves you deeply; and he wants the world/the best for you. What he is doing to you now is all for your prosperous future. I know it deep in my heart.
Your lamentation reminds me of myself at young age. Mine, was towards my mother vice a father. I always believed my mother hated me. She was always harsh to/strict with me, even worse than your father does to you. I got spank/punishments a lot. I do mean real spankings numerous times even at my high-school age.
I used to think that I was not at all her child; I was simply an abandoned infant whom she picked up from the road. Many times, I asked a-ma (grandmother) why mother never loved me; was it because I was not her biological child?
I always yearned for her tender, love and care (TLC). Little I know that she loves me deeply; and she wants the best for me. I was too silly to realize that under her circumstances it was the only way she knew how to express her TLC.
I was too blind to understand that she is an uneducated woman who struggled to raise 10 children as well as to care for a sick husband. To keep the whole ship afloat, she had to be very strong: the authorative figure/the commander/the discipliner. The notion of TLC (you and I yearn for) is not in her concept because it, to her, manifests weakness. And that could result in a ship-wreck. Under those circumstances, it was the best she knew.
I realized later that she really cares for me; she wants the best for me. She wants me to apply myself to my fullest capacity so that I will have a good life; not a hard-life like hers.
Had I not been disciplined, I would have not been where Im now. I would have otherwise become a statistic like young girls in my neighborhood: got knocked up and had babies at young age. I owe to this strong woman a great deal. Im forever grateful to her. And, that is her TLC to me. So is your fathers TLC to you.
You are very fortunate to have a father who cares for you; with whom you can bond. My father was paralyzed when I was eight years old; and passed away later when I was in high school. Whenever I think about him, a picture of a sick man lying in bed always pops up.
During the last three months of his life; I had the opportunity to really cared for him: nursed him. Each day after body cleaning, I fed him his favorite fruit, Asian pears. While I was peeling the pears, he always looked at me with a faint smile. It was the only bond I have with my father; and I chose to keep that as a fond memory. I cherish it dearly!
Chin up, be strong...and believe that no other men in this world love you as much as he does.
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